The Safest Place

I felt so alone and empty as I slowly walked. I had lost so much in life and within myself; I couldn't live that way anymore. I left my home with everything in it to start walking to my destination. I heard nothing but the dark thoughts that kept running through my head. The thoughts that I was going to kill.  I didn't feel I needed to be dead but the feelings and thoughts that would never leave so I had to kill them, one way or another they had to stop. I tried drinking that didn't stop them. I cut myself hoping I could bleed them out. But they stayed. After losing, so much I was just a shell of who I once was. Even though I was dead inside the terrible thoughts and feelings were very much alive. But they had to die since they pretty much already killed me.

After walking for a long time, I finally got to where it was I was going to kill what needed to die.  Someone was there though. I didn't want someone to see me kill my thoughts and feelings I had to do it alone. They were sitting on the ledge their legs dangling over the edge. I decided to sit down beside them hoping maybe they would leave if I was there. So like them, I sat on the ledge my legs dangling as well.  The person was a guy about my age, he was crying.  I would have been crying too but I was to dead inside to cry anymore. I wondered why he was there as well. Not to enjoy the view or he wouldn't have been crying.

Without knowing why I wrapped my arms around him. It scared him but he did not resist. After a few minutes, he wrapped his arms around me. I held him as he cried sitting there on the ledge with his legs dangling. There was no sound except the wind some birds and his crying as I held him close as I sat there on the ledge with my legs dangling.  My mind thought on its own as it always does but this time the thoughts were not so dark. My feelings were not so dark as I held him to me. He had quit crying but he did not let go of nor did I let go of him.  

Carefully I stood up with him still in my arms, him standing up with me. I started to walk with my arm around him. 

"Where are you taking me he ask so softly." 

Without thinking I said, "Someplace safe."  He only nodded his head.

So I walked to someplace safe while I held on to him, him holding on to me as we got farther from the ledge where we had sat our legs dangling. When we got to the place that was safe, I laid him in my bed getting in with him and we fell asleep holding each other. Together as we lay in my bed in each other's arms, we went to the safest place I knew.   Dreamland.

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